atlantic city.

May 2006 - Atlantic City, NJ

Although I've been here just for a few hours, I fell in love with the boardwalk of this City. It was so cold, and some of the stores were closed. There were only a few people aside from us, and it rained a little afterwards. It may seem gloomy to some, but it was one of the happiest days of my life.

I don't know why. Maybe it was with the people I am with. But I've been with them for two months on different places living with other people. So it's not exactly the reason. I gave up trying to figure out why.

But I will always remember this place with fondness, just like Chicago.

church.

Love is patient;
love is kind;
love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth.
It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.
-(NRSV, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

Father said we should be patient not just with circumstances, but with people. I remembered I just lost my patience with this guy last night. I offended him, and i'm sorry.

I nearly cried when I saw this little girl running happily towards her sister outside the church. they were sitting on the floor against the wall. they were selling something or begging.

Father said that he met many people in UP who are intellectuals, intelligent people with substance. But without love, they are worthless.

Loneliness is such a terrible thing. But I try to be happy in whatever situation I am in.

& for you darling, yes, I'll try to be patient.

home.

it's fixed. my mom already bought my plane tickets. My flight's on friday morning, and will be back by monday.

I still have a paper due tomorrow; an exam by wed; a monologue to recite, a play to watch, and an oral recitation on law by thursday..and i'm on a short vacation starting friday...can't wait...=)

i'll bake some cakes for my friends here..i miss doing them..

& i miss him too.

mixed

this is the day when i felt like a month has passed by..& by that i don't mean just any ordinary month..

8 am- @ adidas, vinzons - i was with this JPIA applicant & we were both manning the entrance booth, when my mom called. She was crying. Her father just died. It was her birthday yesterday. She was planning to celebrate it when she comes home. Her flight was today, so she just arrived there in the morning. & her father died that morning too. Probably from stoke, they said. My grandma was staying at our house while mom was away. She came back to their house early in the morning, and they couldn't wake him up. He was dead.

I refer to him as my mom's dad, not as my grandfather. we weren't that close. we've talked, and we were always at their house when we were kids; but that's all. we see him, & that's it. nothing more. a person can say that i've been too unfeeling, so unemotional. but that's him too. in any case, my mom was crying till the afternoon, & she wants me to go back home next week. it was ok on my sched. But my dad & grandmother decided against it. my mom is still trying to decide about my flight home. her father's dead; there's nothing more i can do. i can't bring myself to cry, to mourn, to do something that would show my grief. nothing..

i told jake about it. he also went here from the states when his grandparent died last summer. he keeps asking if i'm ok. & i am. no need to worry.

11:30 am- my professor in 101 gave the results of our midterm exam, and i got a hundred, a perfect score. in our group of six, 2 of us got a prfect score, one 99, one 98, one 96, & the other unknown. four of us got a 1.00, that's over the nine people who got a 1.00 in the whole class.

that subject is ok for us. we gt nice papers, got good grades in quizzes, & delivered a good report presentation. i'm a little behind right now, but i'l try to catch up with it later on.

2.30 pm- class pic with sir. last day of 141. gil's birthday.

5 pm- someone from jake's school (he ws in a PE uniform), came over to the adidas sale. was surprised. but happy that he really tried to inform people & help me with my project.

6pm- he called 30 minutes earlier saying he was already in UP & was looking for the adidas sale. then i went to BA to check some stuff. Then a few minutes after i came back, he went out the room. i really appreciated the effort though he wasn't able to find what he wanted really. thanks.

7 pm- the adidas staff said that the sales for the day is ok though still not enough to cover the low sales the past few days.

7.15 pm - i asked my prof in 182 if i passed the midterm exam. he said mine's on the 80+. so it's ok. great. i thought i'm going to fail that course.

i read the university paper and the article titled "keys me" was really intriguing. a critique directed to most young people. i want to meet the author. i've got lots to ask.

--i'm too tired to think of anything else right now. i haven't studied yet for my exam in accounting for next week. i wish i could rest for a week.--