"Do not tell him you want a commitment, he will run, repeat, he will run faster than you can blink. "
-from somewhere in yahoo
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Friday, June 22, 2007
pathetically speaking i'm ok
i'm sorry...(why am i forever saying sorry?)
if ever that's the last time we're gonna meet, i really do regret it. i always dreamt that we'll have fun and laugh, and wish that the night will never end.
but how come when i face you i can't be myself? why do i feel so tensed and nervous?..to tell the truth, it's much easier (and we have better conversations at that) actually to talk to you thru chat or text rather than personally. even the sound of your voice makes me so nervous, and it makes me act so differently than i want to.
maybe because we should try spending more time together rather than just through whatever means of communication that is/are convenient to us.
that is, if you want to.
it takes effort and time to make it. but obviously you don't seem to exert effort and give time, i suppose there really is nothing in there. plus, you got all the entertainment you need from the people surrounding you.
you don't need me. you don't want me. and i hate it.
pathetic.
if ever that's the last time we're gonna meet, i really do regret it. i always dreamt that we'll have fun and laugh, and wish that the night will never end.
but how come when i face you i can't be myself? why do i feel so tensed and nervous?..to tell the truth, it's much easier (and we have better conversations at that) actually to talk to you thru chat or text rather than personally. even the sound of your voice makes me so nervous, and it makes me act so differently than i want to.
maybe because we should try spending more time together rather than just through whatever means of communication that is/are convenient to us.
that is, if you want to.
it takes effort and time to make it. but obviously you don't seem to exert effort and give time, i suppose there really is nothing in there. plus, you got all the entertainment you need from the people surrounding you.
you don't need me. you don't want me. and i hate it.
pathetic.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
100th post
yeah.. and when I see my first few posts, I learned that I haven't learned anything..I am not moving on. still stuck in the same old place - hurt & disgusted with myself.
more than a year already..stuck. agh.
little by little i'll move away, and by doing so will make me get over things i should have left years ago.
more than a year already..stuck. agh.
little by little i'll move away, and by doing so will make me get over things i should have left years ago.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
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