A Library

I have a dream, a vision. I want to put up a library here in our province. It's gonna be something of a retirement job. I want to design it, build it, and manage it. It's going to be more of a private collection, but I suppose I can put a whole range of genres. There will be children's to old people's books. And there will be story telling sessions and autograph signing. It's got an automated system- a digitized library card maker, barcode scanner for books, and an inventory system like a POS. Just one computer for the librarian to manage lending and receiving. Another open terminal for people checking the reviews and availability of books. People can also write reviews on the books they've read using their library card. Then book sales can also be organized, and also for consignment from other people. Then a small cafe outside, and another private room for book club meetings and wifi users. A video and music room can also be made upstairs.

It's beautifully designed, warm and cozy. It's well ventilated, and most of all, it's FREE. Violations and late returns however, will be fined. :-)

Predominant mental disposition

I think it is unavoidable to think negative thoughts, but our predominant mental disposition should be positive. I think I have a similar post about this months ago.

I should be like Cyrilla, able to make happy, cheery, and easy letters.

Work and feelings

People say it takes work - great marriage, career, and everything else. So I'll work, and be as patient and as determined as possible to make our relationship work. A deal is a deal, even if it's only with myself.

And I won't let you decide how I feel. What I think and feel should be based on me alone, and I will not let outside circumstances affect me. I will continue to be a loving friend towards you. Not because I'm hoping you'd return the affection, but because it's me. I want to decide how I feel, and I am determined to be as happy as possible.

Alkaline

On a completely unrelated topic, what do you think of alkaline water? Of course I'm doing research too, but I'd like to know if you've heard anything about it. Planning on switching to it from purified. Is the concept a scam? Is it really beneficial to our health or is it harmful?

Abroad

One of the reasons why I love living in another country with a different language is because it is so much quieter. I can't understand them and I can easily block the "noise". I have only myself to think about, only my thoughts to hear.

vs. last year?

Why do I feel stagnant? It's an awful feeling, and I don't like it. Compared to last year, it feels like I'm back to Square 1 again. No job, no money, no lovelife, nothing. Nothing going on in my life. I try to do everything I can with what I have, as I always do. But just right now- I'm in the same exact situation as I was a year ago. Late 2009-Early 2010: After the board exam, the holidays, and on to the new year. 2011- This is supposed to be my year. I want EVERYTHING! And I'm excited about the future!

24

The date here is a day late. or half a day late. It's already January 5, and this post shows January 4. It was my cousin's 24th birthday yesterday. It reminds me that I'd also be turning 24 soon.

I keep dreaming that he will propose to me soon. That is, day dreaming. But no matter how exciting that prospect is, I hope I will snap out of it sooner than later. I am sick of waiting, with no assurance. Tired. Anxious. Hopeless.

24. I thought I'd have something GREAT going on in my life right now.

As Quitter of the Year

2010 - I resigned from my last job and relationship. They're over. Time to move on.
2011 is going to be my year! Woohoooo!