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7:46 pm: dinner. brownout for a split second & several people shrieked. so funny. why can't they just shut up? Is it already instinctive or reflexive of them to panic with a simple event like that?

i hate it when people disturb me with senseless reasons. do i have to be involved in such a stupid situation when i don't even care for the whole damn thing? i mean, do a person have to tell me all his/her problems (even the petty ones my gosh) and would ask for my help? even the petty ones, believe me. it's so irritating & frustrating to hear those darn pleas for help. like: can i borrow this because of this,,that,.that..because you know i have no time to do this, or i have no money/financial resources to afford this or that...the hell i don't even care. you can even spend on some things that i don't even think of spending. my god. and you have the time, hah. you've got to do things i don't even have time of doing. & i've been in your place/position, wen i didn’t have those things before. believe me, i survived. other people also do. i own these things, i spend for these things, and you'll use them for free? omg. then i shouldn't have bought them and could have just borrowed from other people if it's all the same for you.

such parasites.

*sigh* it irritates me so. gives me such a headache.. whew… how could i stop this temper & learn to relax & tolerate other people? moreover, how could i discipline this kind of persons?

Anonymous II

hello darling.

this post is a tribute for you.

now that we're saying goodbyes, what i want you to know is that:

you're one of the greatest persons i've ever known. oh well, you might not know it, & you might think i don't know you well enough..but as far as i'v known you, you really are great.

you're smart, intelligent, witty, and a very sensible person. at first, i thought you're just one of those cute guys with no exceptional intelligence to match. now you know i find you cute (or you've known it before) haha. & nah, i didn't mean i thought you're dumb or anything..[kidding]..i just didn't think you really are something extraordinary.

i get surprised every time we chat; every time we talk about anything, there's always something special i'l discover about you, something different that makes me appreciate you more. you're different from the other people i've met; there's always some depth. maybe i haven't been with other people that much, but that's the reason why. i don't spend my time with them because it means wasting my time talking about unnecessary & uninteresting things.

i don't know if you find chatting with me as wasting time; but i hope not..we've spent too much time just to regard it as nonsense, yes?

even though i've said that i wish we shouldn't have met the time we did, what i really meant was., maybe if we met at a later time, then we should have gotten along better... as better friends.

but i really appreciate everything you did for me (the positive ones!- attending my formal dinner, & chatting with me for hours..=)..

& also your pickup car..loved the color... you asked me about what i wanted, & u discussed the options with me. don't know if you did it with other people but it made me feel important.

thanks again.

ich vermisse dich.

[- that i won't forget.]

Anonymous

thanks. i really appreaciate it. i also want you to know that i'm really sorry for everything i'v done to you..i know i'v affected you negatively. it's been a result of teenage infatuation that i've only learned recently how to control.

thanks for the things you'v done for me. even though we didn't get along well, at least we tried to be civil & friendly with each other.

i really could learn patience from you. you never showed your temper... oh yeah, you sound irritated sometimes, but you could control it.

i mean you're a pretty nice person; great in fact. but even though i've learned lots of things from you, now i wish we shouldn't have met by the time we did. i wish i didn't get your number then. i wish we should have took our time. i wish i didn't meddle with what destiny had for us- if we're not supposed to meet & be friends, then fine. then I could have spent my time with other people, doing other things; instead of being miserable & aggressive.

now i know that people should be patient with destiny. wait for what fate has before us. we shouldn't be aggresive.

now i have to learn to be tolerant, to be patient, & to be thankful for eveything.

thanks darling.

octopus

problems are like an octopus. you pull the big head out.., & the tentacles follow along.., each with its own boulder carried with it.

i don't know what else i have to do in order to achieve or perform everything right. or to please everybody including myself. but by doing so I'm torturing myself.

have to find a way out. have solve it soon.

i have to do something to make my life better. more desirable. more desirable to me.

alice in the wonderland

excerpt:

"Who are you?" said the caterpillar

This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied rather shyly, "I hardly know Sir, just at present - at least I knew who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have changed several times since then."

My temper. my emotions. so hard to control. my mood changes dramatically from one phase to another in a matter of seconds. it's hard for me to keep still. too much energy and feelings.got to have an outlet. got bored easily. have to find something to keep me entertained.

& i think it's already affecting the people around me.

It's rather difficult for me to work in a group. I hardly have any tolerance or patience for that matter, to communicate with and understand my groupmates. It's hard for me to adjust to their way of thinking. I'm not saying I'm always right, but I see things clearly and simpler than most of them. In the end, I end up more tired and confused than before. It irritates me so to wait for them to comprehend and understand the whole thing I'm saying, or the whole matter at hand. I have to learn to be patient, & to be tolerant of other people's behavior..

It also hurts me...that I had hurt them or had offended them...but I can't control it. The way i see it, if we have to efficient & effective, they have to do things MY way. so selfish. yes, i have to practice and develop teamwork and cooperation.

This is a lifelong activity- to be involved in groups or teams. i have to learn to adjust & coordinate with them.

hard time though.

the man who ate the 747

For anyone who's ever done something crazy for love

excerpts from the book by Ben Sherwood.

Facial symmetry means fewer genetic mutations. Of course, men also want women with waists 40 % smaller than their hips. The hourglass figure is biological proof of fertility and fitness. You see, beauty is about attraction, and attraction is about survival.

Love is all brain chemistry. You see a pretty girl and you get a blast of a neurotransmitter called dopamine. that;s why you feel excited. Same with happiness. It's just an electrical impulse from your left prefontral cortex. [sight stimulates release of dopamine? =)]

Love, or the sensation associated with it, comes down to three things: symmetry, scent, and sound. The way a person looks, the way they smell, the sound of their voice. That's what love is. That special feeling is just nature's way of telling you to mix your genes. As for true love, friendship, or even compatibility...[same thing].

"Loves me 65".. when i was three or four, my parents came to tuck me at night. i told them i loved them. dad asked "how much?" so i thought of the biggest number in the whole wide world and came up with 65. it was the highest i could count.

Oxytocin is a hormone that induces labor, starts lactation, attaches women to theur babies and to men they sleep with. Stimulates brain receptors that create emotions. Men have it too, though not as much as the women.

[but you know what, in the end, JJ Smith, the keeper of the records, ended up falling in love, and believing in love...

and that's what love is..accepting ur mistakes & livin ur lyf. =) ]