alice in the wonderland

excerpt:

"Who are you?" said the caterpillar

This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied rather shyly, "I hardly know Sir, just at present - at least I knew who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have changed several times since then."

My temper. my emotions. so hard to control. my mood changes dramatically from one phase to another in a matter of seconds. it's hard for me to keep still. too much energy and feelings.got to have an outlet. got bored easily. have to find something to keep me entertained.

& i think it's already affecting the people around me.

It's rather difficult for me to work in a group. I hardly have any tolerance or patience for that matter, to communicate with and understand my groupmates. It's hard for me to adjust to their way of thinking. I'm not saying I'm always right, but I see things clearly and simpler than most of them. In the end, I end up more tired and confused than before. It irritates me so to wait for them to comprehend and understand the whole thing I'm saying, or the whole matter at hand. I have to learn to be patient, & to be tolerant of other people's behavior..

It also hurts me...that I had hurt them or had offended them...but I can't control it. The way i see it, if we have to efficient & effective, they have to do things MY way. so selfish. yes, i have to practice and develop teamwork and cooperation.

This is a lifelong activity- to be involved in groups or teams. i have to learn to adjust & coordinate with them.

hard time though.