to my teacher

it was already good, you know. even if i wasn't talking to you that much, you could have realized that it was already going fine.

or were we pretending to be tipsy or worse, drunk?

were you?

you asked kung sino sasama pabalik. were you directing that question to me? i felt like it was. and it seemed like ako lang naman pwede.

i was angry at you when you told everybody in the car (addressing no one in particular) that i wasn't your favorite in class. and you told them your favorite was the one who got high grades, and that i got low grades.

we weren't even discussing any topic connected with that matter. You just said it. And i was surprised more than angry. and i think the rest was surprised too. nobody reacted, if you noticed.

why were you being so defensive?

i wasn't asking to be your favorite student. i didn't care if i'm NOT a favorite student. but why do you have to tell everybody there? why do you have to remind me and tell everybody that i got low grades in your class? as if they care.

as if i care.

if that person is your fave student (one who's always getting the high grades), makakarating sa kanya, sabihin mo lang.

i was angry afterwards. after i overcame the shock. when i got home and realized what you said.

and i'm still confused.