Back to Blogging

It's been nearly 3 years since I wrote here. I missed it so. Before, I thought if I spent less time here, I would have more time going out and having fun, and actually experiencing life. But no, it's not that way. I realize now that writing posts in a blog, whether anyone aside from me actually reads this thing, is my outlet. I can write here my ideas, thoughts, and anything that happened during the day. After venting out all my anger, I become more peaceful and calm. The past 2.5 years, which coincidentally was around the time I was with my ex-boyfriend #2, I wasn't able to blog much because he was always around and I didn't have an "alone time". I could barely write in my planner. I wanted some time by myself without anyone asking me what I'm doing. This is "me" time, just mine. Well, he and I are over, which is actually a good thing. It's making us focus on things more important than our crazy love, or infatuation with each other. When I think of him, I think of all the guys I dated, and try to compare one with the other. Maybe it's just the way I think - pros and cons, cost and benefit analysis. Maybe, just maybe, this year, my life will be better and more organized. I wish my life will be more calm and peaceful, and just generally happy. Another thing, whenever I write here, it seems like I'm talking to myself and God. I'd like to believe God is listening to me right now. There are some things he wish to say - what is it, Lord? But it's very noisy here and my head is all cluttered. It's something important and I honestly don't want to know about it, but I should. I gotta talk to my Dad.