Love and Money

I wonder, if you have all the money in the world that you could ever want, will you still date the same person you are dating now? Why? What if you were born with a billion dollars to your name? Will it affect your interests significantly that you probably wouldn't or wouldn't want to go with your current date? What if, suddenly, you have a billion dollars to your name? Will it not affect your relationship? What's the difference between these two?

french

Teach me something French, aside from French kiss.

Going back to Hanoi

Everyone is getting married. They all seem happy. They got good jobs, traveled around the world, bought a car/house, and got married. They have nice phones, nice bags, nice everything. And me? I'm still here wearing my old clothes since college, and living in my parents' house. All my dreams of materialistic wealth from my college years did not happen in real life. I have lost interest in most. To be honest, I don't want to get married now, but I do want to have you back in my life. I want my perfect someone to be with me through life. I remember our one month together more than the 2.5 years I spent with him. Maybe because of the short period of time that I was able to remember more, or maybe because we did more fun stuff together. I was bored with him, maybe because I kept comparing him to you. He was nice, and he was thoughtful, but our interests are just so different. We were bored with each other. It was both our faults our relationship was like that. Maybe we weren't just meant to be. I never felt so alive when I was with you, and I never felt so dead and bored with myself when I was with him. I thought sacrificing for love was like that, but it didn't get any better. Now that I'm going back to Vietnam on July, I hope to relive our wonderful memories. I'm secretly hoping to meet you there even though it's impossible since you're in another country, or maybe meet another someone like you. Just like you. It's going to be a fun trip. I miss you a lot.

Cooking

So, we were assigned to cook for lunch today, and I planned out a nice meal: sweet and sour chicken, pork with shrimp paste, and tilapia in coconut milk. But they added more - fish soup, and fried fish, both of which I'm not particularly fond of. For dessert, I baked 2 boxes of brownie mix in a cheesecake pan so we can easily get it out. And we bought vanilla ice cream. An uncle pulled out a pack of marshmallows which was good with the ice cream and brownies. Ahh, it was heaven! :) I wish I had some chocolate syrup to pour over the ice cream! Brownies was so good, and everyone praised me about the brownies! It was soft and fudgy in the middle, and just cooked perfectly! Everything was good except for the tilapia. It was okay, just nothing special. It shouldn't have been cooked in vinegar, just straight into coconut milk. Anyway, i'll try cooking Bicol Express, and Tilapia in Coconut Milk. Yay! I'm so excited! I want to eat good food but it seems I have to make it in order to eat it. Just can't get it here.

French

I really need to learn French. I hope someone will be able to teach me in a fun way. My ex-boyfriend didn't bother teaching me the language. I guess because it's also difficult for him since he wasn't a native or a very fluent speaker. I wish I have spent more time going out by myself or with friends, instead of just staying home with him. I didn't think and feel so good about staying inside all the time, but I felt guilty going out and leaving him. Besides, he would accuse me of cheating and whatever. And he would say things to make me feel guilty. I'm glad it's all over now. I just wish I could have done more. Well there's no use crying over spilled milk now, is there? I wish to meet new friends- interesting ones who LOVE to travel on their own too! I've met some people who are like that, but I refused to develop the friendships because I was so wrongly focused on my "only" relationship, which was with him. He taught me a lot, about relationships, about love, but I wish I listened to my instincts more. I loved you, my very thoughtful ex, but we are not meant to be. We make each other miserable. And now, I want to learn French, the useless language according to you. And I will have new friends too.