A long delayed post

I do want to create a new blog, like a fresh clean start, turning a new leaf, starting with a blank page. I feel like this blog has already been full of emotions, heavy ones at that, since it has been my dumping ground of all my thoughts and fears and experiences. I want a new blog, with different tabs for different topics, and one tab for life in general. My laptop takes a long time to boot, so by the time it does, I'm no longer in the mood to write. My ex boyfriend (on and off bf, actually, except for 1 entire year last year), has been very nice. But sometimes he is not thoughtful, and forgets I just want the little things. I've asked him many times why he didn't tell me he loves me, but he ignores it. Later he claims he really loves me. I don't understand. Maybe he doesn't love me anymore, or maybe he really loves me and thought it's not important to say it. Now he blocked me off on FB when we're not even friends there. We annoy each other a lot, and it's very difficult for me to control my anger when he is being so dense. Why can't he not get what I'm trying to say? I need to write more tomorrow. I want to, but I'm really sleepy now.