half-naked

i often wondered why some people can't live together, or can't learn to live together in peace..it's easy for me to get along with all kinds of people., the only trick is to expect nothing out of them, but don't be proud yourself..

i got a lot of friends..not really that much but enough to keep my name known in our small town..this i need to accomplish some nearly-impossible tasks when i was a student there..i got friends..but they're just it..nothing more..i'm not proud to say that i never had a bestfriend..being with the same person for a long time makes me feel sick. i start seeing his/her mistakes, flaws, imperfections..as if i'm perfect myself. but to avoid such unnecessary confrontations & petty quarrels, i just pretend that i'm ok and then later move on to another crowd..still friends, and it's better for all of us. i can't stand some people and it has been easier for me to ignore them totally..i perfected that craft..of making people disappear, pretending they do not exist is one of the easiest mental activities i can do..

i may not have a pretty life, but i managed to get along well enough with friends, some close ones, and family..

i tend to move on easily..forget the past and go on with the flow..at times hurting some of the people i knew back then.. it's easier for me..but it also brings out the worst.

i never thought there'd be a day i'll find someone that i'll never be able to live with..& it hurts more that he's one of the closest persons to me. can't deny i like him. what a terrible mistake indeed.