Reflections on Breakup

Why I had no boyfriend before?

I never liked anyone that much to exert effort in a relationship. I follow my instincts more than I do what my brain thinks. And with you, I was just comfortable - no questions asked. It just felt so right. I knew there was no certainty, but I was still in for the real thing. It was a risk I had to take, and I wanted to take. And I'd do it again if given the same opportunity.

I just want you to know, that even though I knew there was no assurance, that we have to part ways, and there will be changes..I was still in for the real thing.

Maybe it just took me some time to get used to the idea of having you around. Maybe we just have different ways of showing that we care for each other, and that we might misinterpret what the other person is trying to say. Maybe I just didn't have the previous experiences necessary for me to express my feelings properly. Maybe I just wasn't the expressively sweet and loving person you want me to be.

But I just want you to know - that I do care for you, and I wish you the best in life. I hope you enjoy the travels and adventures you will have ahead.

We had a great time, didn't we? We had a wonderful time together. And I don't regret taking the risk. If I had one shot at Mr. Right, I'm going to take the risk. Yes, yes. I will say Yes, over and over again.

You taught me how to love, how to let go. I'm willing to do everything, and fight for something but I have to know that person I'm willing to fight for wants me to do it as well...wants to be won over.

You're a very attractive person, and I am jealous of all the girls throwing themselves at you, while you continue to be the sweet person that you are.

Things I should have told you then:
1. You are attractive
2. You make me happy and contented
3. You make me laugh
4. Yes, you got me!

And I have taken them all for granted

I have to stop being so sensitive. You love me, and I know that! And I'm not helping either of us, or the situation by being so negative. You love me. And I love you. And we will be together forever.

I know the feeling of being grumpy and not caring about the other people. It's been too long, and you are tired. I hope you're making the right decision darling.

I am happy. Because I found someone whom I can give forever to. I thank the Lord everyday, that I met you and I experienced love, which is something you cannot sympathize with unless you experienced it.

What will happen is just a challenge - a test if we are really for each other. Bring it on, Life! I'm ready. If we're not for each other, then somebody else out there is for us. Someone better suited to us. And yes, we shouldn't be sad. We should be happy. Because in the end, everything's going to be alright. Just the way it should be. Just the way God wants it to be. The perfect way.