reason why

I'm really confused right now, darling.

I know i'm supposed to be here. All the signs are pointing this way. And I feel totally at home. There's no doubt that I made the right decision coming here. The things happening aren't just coincidences - they are meant to happen. The reason why I'm here, however, is what I don't know.

See, I've realized the following after having a talk with a friend last night:
1. I don't like the corporate life because it's too confining or restricting working in an office environment with all the cubicles, work hours, and policies.
2. I don't like my current job because I don't think I'm good at it. And low pay doesn't make me feel any better either.
3. I always try to move away if things don't go as good as planned. Or you can say, I try to escape the mess I'm in.

So, I think I have some idea now why I'm here:
1. Fix myself - emotionally and mentally - my plans, my attitude, and how I face temporary setbacks in life.
2. Have fun. Learn how to relax.

What are the chances, darling?
1. I've read that if you stay with police people, you don't have to do much paperwork. And I do now. I just learned about it that they're part of the police.
2. A housemate with a degree in psychology? I had wished for ages to talk to someone professional for some kind of therapy. Even informal.
3. A family. They are really nice and I like them. It feels so much like what a home should feel like.

I gotta fix myself. I was so messed up when I left the country.