"...and the Grinch, with his Grinch-like feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so?
It came without ribbons.
It came without tags.
It came without packages, boxes or bags.
And he puzzled and puzzled til his puzzler was sore.
Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before:
What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store.
What if Christmas perhaps, means a little bit more.." - Dr. Seuss
-Forwarded text message from Sani. December 24, 2007 7:15:56pm
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Forwarded text message
Forwarded text message:
When you're stuck loving someone, no matter how hard you try to forget that person, it's just not enough. Sometimes all we can do is STAY AWAY. And it does help a bit, but just for a while. 'Cause when that person shows you even the SMALLEST GESTURE OF AFFECTION, all your efforts of moving on go down the drain. And you're left alone gaian with nothing to say but..."Damn, I just fell for that again."
-Thanks Arcadio for sending this. It's exactly the way I feel about him (my uber longtime crush). I can't help it, and I really do try. Sometimes there are infatuations in between. I like another person but after some time it wears off, and I go back to dreaming of you again. They don't usually last long, those in-betweens. It's gone before they even realize it. And i can't figure out what to do to forget you and move on, MOVE ON. Years my gosh, and I think I've wasted a lot of my time for you, achieving nothing in return.
When you're stuck loving someone, no matter how hard you try to forget that person, it's just not enough. Sometimes all we can do is STAY AWAY. And it does help a bit, but just for a while. 'Cause when that person shows you even the SMALLEST GESTURE OF AFFECTION, all your efforts of moving on go down the drain. And you're left alone gaian with nothing to say but..."Damn, I just fell for that again."
-Thanks Arcadio for sending this. It's exactly the way I feel about him (my uber longtime crush). I can't help it, and I really do try. Sometimes there are infatuations in between. I like another person but after some time it wears off, and I go back to dreaming of you again. They don't usually last long, those in-betweens. It's gone before they even realize it. And i can't figure out what to do to forget you and move on, MOVE ON. Years my gosh, and I think I've wasted a lot of my time for you, achieving nothing in return.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
A Great Christmas: "Deal or No Deal"
For three years now, our family has been celebrating our Christmases with a competition. On the eve of the 24th of December, all of my relatives who are at the province gather at my grandmother’s house to celebrate Christmas. Since all of us in the province live in just one baranggay, it was easy to communicate with everybody.
The competition started on December 2004. To make the party more exciting, my grandmother decided that every family should present a little something – a show without any limit. It can be a dance or a song number, a play, or any other we could think of. There was only one rule: that all members of the family should participate in whatever they are going to present. An aunt from Germany sponsored the competition; that means she’s going to give the prizes. First prize was P 5000 for the winning family, and there were consolation prizes for the rest.
Now it so happened that my mom was so driven to win that competition. It’s not as if we really need the money. Maybe she was just in it for the excitement of a competition. So she secretly came up with an idea of how we’re going to present. Since we were all Disney babies (we were raised watching Disney movies!), and there are five girls in our family (me and my four sisters) plus our mom, that’s six, she decided that we’ll do a Disney show. She assigned a character for each one of us- Mulan, Little Mermaid, Jasmine, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella (me!), Beauty and the Beast (my mom & dad). We prepared the costumes, the music, and choreographed the whole show. Some were made to sing, some danced, and some did both.
The night of the competition, which is Christmas Eve, we were ready and confident to win. We were chosen to present first, and the others were so surprised and amused. They didn’t think that we prepared that much, and I must admit, my mom’s idea was pretty good. After our presentation, they felt that they have no chances of winning since they didn’t prepare much. They didn’t think anybody would give much thought about it. The parents or adults weren’t that concerned, but the kids, my cousins, sulked. They were telling their parents to practice but their parents were either too busy or just didn’t give much thought about it. Now they were regretting that they weren’t able to come up with a better presentation.
Since it seemed we’re the only ones who prepared, my grandmother decided to call off the competition. It was unfair; and my dad couldn’t help expressing his opinions. The thing is, it was an announced competition- fair and square. The rules were clear and there was no question or objection to any matter regarding the competition. It was probably my grandmother’s pity (awa) to the other families. They don’t even need that P5000. It’s just a bit of an incentive. Instead, she decided to give us a vaseful of chocolate coins – imported I guess, with the glass vase more valuable than those inside it, but much less than the supposed prize. But what concerns me most is the bad example she set for the little children – bending the rules without any justifiable reason. I don’t know if a relative asked her to call off the competition. But most knew that it was unfair, and it really felt awkward and stupid. After that, we just decided to forget the whole thing and enjoy the rest of the party.
December 2005: Now everybody’s preparing for their presentations. We decided to present (again, my mom’s idea) a magic show! My dad’s going to be the magician, and we’re supposed to be the dancers and the assistants. My mom hired someone to do our costumes and then we practiced our dance steps and blockings. My dad decided to go for a look like an Indian or a genie with a chaleco and a turban. We also have to prepare appropriate music for the show.
Haha! It was a blast! They didn’t anticipate it. Although my dad (who practiced the tricks just earlier that day) failed on a trick, he managed to get the audience roaring with laughter and entertainment. Though it was a little messy presentation, the idea was unique as compared to the others and audience participation and impact was greater than anybody else’s.
We won. We’re happy. My bachelor uncle sponsored for the prizes. Though they decided to reduce the first prize and increase the lower prizes, after of course, our presentation. It’s Christmas, I don’t want to say another bad word.
December 2006: My mom has an idea again. It seems like she’s always prepared for this. She wants a “Deal or No Deal” show. There are six girls total – my youngest sister was to play Kris Aquino, and the rest of us were to be the 26 K. My dad’s the banker. He was so excited he devised his radio set and headsets for “Kris”. My mom then again thought that we should be dressed in those sexy outfits the girls in “Deal or No Deal” wore. So she decided to hire someone again (same one who made our costumes last year) to make our green spaghetti tank top dresses. Since there are only 5 of us as the 26K, we have two “briefcases” each so that there are 10 amounts to choose from. My dad asked one of his construction workers to make the stands and my sister and I made the envelopes with the amounts written on them (the briefcases). Then there’s the music I have to download with the opening music, banker’s music and tension music (it’s the one you hear when a contestant is thinking of what briefcase to open, and when to press the button or not). It was fun preparing and dancing since we had to practice the dance steps the 26K girls do at the start of the show. Ours was all manual- there was a big illustration board for the amounts, and one of us has to strike out the amount which was opened. The audience was happy! They enjoyed the show and they were very much entertained. We gave a real prize by the way; the highest was P 2000 I think, with the lowest as P 1. The contestant got P 800.
The other presented a nativity play and several dance shows. Guess who won? One of the families who danced a folk dance crossed with modern steps and music, or vice-versa. All of us were pretty surprised. Even the winning family was so surprised. They were so sure they would lose after seeing all the presentations. I think they should be third, with the nativity coming in second, and ours as first. I forgot who the judges were, but I’m sure my grandmother’s one of them.
Of course some of the adults couldn’t help expressing themselves – some were in favor of us; some would rather keep silent for fear of angering the other parties.
That’s one year ago, and this year I think my mom doesn’t want to enter into a “competition” which isn’t really a fair one. There are criteria for judging given at the start; so even the kids know who’s going to win after watching the presentations.
My mom’s reply after we asked her what we’re going to present: “Ah, magdDEAL or NO DEAL pa rin tayo every year hanggang magsawa sila.”
-modified some: Jasmine (Snow White) and P2000 (P1000). I really coudn't remember the exact details when I wrote this for the Inquirer. My mom reminded after she read the issue. hehe. Had to give credit for Inquirer staff for making up the title. I also forgot to make one. :P
The competition started on December 2004. To make the party more exciting, my grandmother decided that every family should present a little something – a show without any limit. It can be a dance or a song number, a play, or any other we could think of. There was only one rule: that all members of the family should participate in whatever they are going to present. An aunt from Germany sponsored the competition; that means she’s going to give the prizes. First prize was P 5000 for the winning family, and there were consolation prizes for the rest.
Now it so happened that my mom was so driven to win that competition. It’s not as if we really need the money. Maybe she was just in it for the excitement of a competition. So she secretly came up with an idea of how we’re going to present. Since we were all Disney babies (we were raised watching Disney movies!), and there are five girls in our family (me and my four sisters) plus our mom, that’s six, she decided that we’ll do a Disney show. She assigned a character for each one of us- Mulan, Little Mermaid, Jasmine, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella (me!), Beauty and the Beast (my mom & dad). We prepared the costumes, the music, and choreographed the whole show. Some were made to sing, some danced, and some did both.
The night of the competition, which is Christmas Eve, we were ready and confident to win. We were chosen to present first, and the others were so surprised and amused. They didn’t think that we prepared that much, and I must admit, my mom’s idea was pretty good. After our presentation, they felt that they have no chances of winning since they didn’t prepare much. They didn’t think anybody would give much thought about it. The parents or adults weren’t that concerned, but the kids, my cousins, sulked. They were telling their parents to practice but their parents were either too busy or just didn’t give much thought about it. Now they were regretting that they weren’t able to come up with a better presentation.
Since it seemed we’re the only ones who prepared, my grandmother decided to call off the competition. It was unfair; and my dad couldn’t help expressing his opinions. The thing is, it was an announced competition- fair and square. The rules were clear and there was no question or objection to any matter regarding the competition. It was probably my grandmother’s pity (awa) to the other families. They don’t even need that P5000. It’s just a bit of an incentive. Instead, she decided to give us a vaseful of chocolate coins – imported I guess, with the glass vase more valuable than those inside it, but much less than the supposed prize. But what concerns me most is the bad example she set for the little children – bending the rules without any justifiable reason. I don’t know if a relative asked her to call off the competition. But most knew that it was unfair, and it really felt awkward and stupid. After that, we just decided to forget the whole thing and enjoy the rest of the party.
December 2005: Now everybody’s preparing for their presentations. We decided to present (again, my mom’s idea) a magic show! My dad’s going to be the magician, and we’re supposed to be the dancers and the assistants. My mom hired someone to do our costumes and then we practiced our dance steps and blockings. My dad decided to go for a look like an Indian or a genie with a chaleco and a turban. We also have to prepare appropriate music for the show.
Haha! It was a blast! They didn’t anticipate it. Although my dad (who practiced the tricks just earlier that day) failed on a trick, he managed to get the audience roaring with laughter and entertainment. Though it was a little messy presentation, the idea was unique as compared to the others and audience participation and impact was greater than anybody else’s.
We won. We’re happy. My bachelor uncle sponsored for the prizes. Though they decided to reduce the first prize and increase the lower prizes, after of course, our presentation. It’s Christmas, I don’t want to say another bad word.
December 2006: My mom has an idea again. It seems like she’s always prepared for this. She wants a “Deal or No Deal” show. There are six girls total – my youngest sister was to play Kris Aquino, and the rest of us were to be the 26 K. My dad’s the banker. He was so excited he devised his radio set and headsets for “Kris”. My mom then again thought that we should be dressed in those sexy outfits the girls in “Deal or No Deal” wore. So she decided to hire someone again (same one who made our costumes last year) to make our green spaghetti tank top dresses. Since there are only 5 of us as the 26K, we have two “briefcases” each so that there are 10 amounts to choose from. My dad asked one of his construction workers to make the stands and my sister and I made the envelopes with the amounts written on them (the briefcases). Then there’s the music I have to download with the opening music, banker’s music and tension music (it’s the one you hear when a contestant is thinking of what briefcase to open, and when to press the button or not). It was fun preparing and dancing since we had to practice the dance steps the 26K girls do at the start of the show. Ours was all manual- there was a big illustration board for the amounts, and one of us has to strike out the amount which was opened. The audience was happy! They enjoyed the show and they were very much entertained. We gave a real prize by the way; the highest was P 2000 I think, with the lowest as P 1. The contestant got P 800.
The other presented a nativity play and several dance shows. Guess who won? One of the families who danced a folk dance crossed with modern steps and music, or vice-versa. All of us were pretty surprised. Even the winning family was so surprised. They were so sure they would lose after seeing all the presentations. I think they should be third, with the nativity coming in second, and ours as first. I forgot who the judges were, but I’m sure my grandmother’s one of them.
Of course some of the adults couldn’t help expressing themselves – some were in favor of us; some would rather keep silent for fear of angering the other parties.
That’s one year ago, and this year I think my mom doesn’t want to enter into a “competition” which isn’t really a fair one. There are criteria for judging given at the start; so even the kids know who’s going to win after watching the presentations.
My mom’s reply after we asked her what we’re going to present: “Ah, magdDEAL or NO DEAL pa rin tayo every year hanggang magsawa sila.”
-modified some: Jasmine (Snow White) and P2000 (P1000). I really coudn't remember the exact details when I wrote this for the Inquirer. My mom reminded after she read the issue. hehe. Had to give credit for Inquirer staff for making up the title. I also forgot to make one. :P
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
and yes, for you again
and you told another teacher that i'm salbahe?
yes, i'd like to think that it was you who told him. i couldn't bear to think that other teachers would tell that to him.
and you're always saying makulit ako. pinakamakulit sa klase. ah so u'd prefer that everybody in the class will text you rather than ako lang?
i'm sorry if i've been makulit. nalaman mo din sana kung gaano din sila kakulit.
i wish you luck. i wish you well.
yes, i'd like to think that it was you who told him. i couldn't bear to think that other teachers would tell that to him.
and you're always saying makulit ako. pinakamakulit sa klase. ah so u'd prefer that everybody in the class will text you rather than ako lang?
i'm sorry if i've been makulit. nalaman mo din sana kung gaano din sila kakulit.
i wish you luck. i wish you well.
to my teacher
it was already good, you know. even if i wasn't talking to you that much, you could have realized that it was already going fine.
or were we pretending to be tipsy or worse, drunk?
were you?
you asked kung sino sasama pabalik. were you directing that question to me? i felt like it was. and it seemed like ako lang naman pwede.
i was angry at you when you told everybody in the car (addressing no one in particular) that i wasn't your favorite in class. and you told them your favorite was the one who got high grades, and that i got low grades.
we weren't even discussing any topic connected with that matter. You just said it. And i was surprised more than angry. and i think the rest was surprised too. nobody reacted, if you noticed.
why were you being so defensive?
i wasn't asking to be your favorite student. i didn't care if i'm NOT a favorite student. but why do you have to tell everybody there? why do you have to remind me and tell everybody that i got low grades in your class? as if they care.
as if i care.
if that person is your fave student (one who's always getting the high grades), makakarating sa kanya, sabihin mo lang.
i was angry afterwards. after i overcame the shock. when i got home and realized what you said.
and i'm still confused.
or were we pretending to be tipsy or worse, drunk?
were you?
you asked kung sino sasama pabalik. were you directing that question to me? i felt like it was. and it seemed like ako lang naman pwede.
i was angry at you when you told everybody in the car (addressing no one in particular) that i wasn't your favorite in class. and you told them your favorite was the one who got high grades, and that i got low grades.
we weren't even discussing any topic connected with that matter. You just said it. And i was surprised more than angry. and i think the rest was surprised too. nobody reacted, if you noticed.
why were you being so defensive?
i wasn't asking to be your favorite student. i didn't care if i'm NOT a favorite student. but why do you have to tell everybody there? why do you have to remind me and tell everybody that i got low grades in your class? as if they care.
as if i care.
if that person is your fave student (one who's always getting the high grades), makakarating sa kanya, sabihin mo lang.
i was angry afterwards. after i overcame the shock. when i got home and realized what you said.
and i'm still confused.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
past
it's all so confusing,
and my heart's breaking.
you could get on with your life without me.
and here i am,
trying my darndest to forget you.
and to forget you, it would be heaven...
or hell.
and my heart's breaking.
you could get on with your life without me.
and here i am,
trying my darndest to forget you.
and to forget you, it would be heaven...
or hell.
Friday, November 16, 2007
infatuation
It's hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It's painful to tell your heart that you don't need it. You keep on pretending you are better off alone; when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? Why try if there's nothing to win for? Sometimes it pays to wait. Never hurry. Let infatuation die a natural death, and give birth to true love when it's time.
-forwarded text message
-forwarded text message
Monday, October 29, 2007
a prayer
i left a letter.
i gave in for my last indulgence.
i have to forget.
because now i realized that i
want nothing to do with you.
fooled myself with such illusions.
ahh. Lord. forgive me for my sins.
i have wasted time for an unworthy cause.
But now i know better.
Please guide me throughout the way.
Enlighten me always.
Thank you.
i gave in for my last indulgence.
i have to forget.
because now i realized that i
want nothing to do with you.
fooled myself with such illusions.
ahh. Lord. forgive me for my sins.
i have wasted time for an unworthy cause.
But now i know better.
Please guide me throughout the way.
Enlighten me always.
Thank you.
Friday, October 05, 2007
exams
results of wed exam: i passed 50% of my 116 4th LE. gosh, how i wish i'll pass the other 50%. though i fnished it, i knew i made a lot of mistakes there. sure ones! haha.
13th in class for the 50%; last one on the list with names on it. so happy!
had 105 final exam today. so totally unexpected. a different type of exam which caught me offguard. damn. wish i'll get at least a 2.0 on it.
went to SM with kat after exam. bought 2 phones for my 2 sisters - low cost nokia fones with bluetooth, cam, music. think they'll love it anyway. they get better phones than i do.=)
13th in class for the 50%; last one on the list with names on it. so happy!
had 105 final exam today. so totally unexpected. a different type of exam which caught me offguard. damn. wish i'll get at least a 2.0 on it.
went to SM with kat after exam. bought 2 phones for my 2 sisters - low cost nokia fones with bluetooth, cam, music. think they'll love it anyway. they get better phones than i do.=)
Thursday, September 20, 2007
darn promises
i won't won't dare make any promises again.
they really are meant to be broken, especially if they pertain to you.
darn i'm so packed with activities and projects these days.
i really should focus on them.
they really are meant to be broken, especially if they pertain to you.
darn i'm so packed with activities and projects these days.
i really should focus on them.
Monday, September 17, 2007
sweet november
and yes, i still like you.
and i miss you.
and i want to be happy, happy, happy.
coz darling there's no sense being miserable.
oh sweet november.
the romance, the pleasure
i'm missing.
and i miss you.
and i want to be happy, happy, happy.
coz darling there's no sense being miserable.
oh sweet november.
the romance, the pleasure
i'm missing.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
CARNIVALE!
CARNIVALE!
Magic, Acrobats, Streetdance!
Warehouse 135, Yakal St., Makati
September 7, 2007 8-11pm
Party with DJs afterwards!
Tickets @ 250php.Contact: Nikki. 09177374309.
CARNIVALE
an exhibition party that will leaveyou breathless
Marvel at unbelievable magicperformances
Marvel at unbelievable magicperformances
Mesmerize at amazing acrobatic stunts
Move to the beat of the latest grooves
WANA JOIN THE STREETDANCE COMPETITION?
10K worth of cash & prizes for the first placer!
Contact me for details!
Friday, August 17, 2007
CARNIVALE! magic, acrobats, streetdance, DJs!
CARNIVALE!
Magic, Acrobats, Streetdance!
Warehouse 135, Yakal St., Makati
September 7, 2007 8-11pm
Party with DJs afterwards!
Tickets @ 250php.Contact: Nikki. 09177374309.
CARNIVALE
an exhibition party that will leaveyou breathless
Marvel at unbelievable magicperformances
Marvel at unbelievable magicperformances
Mesmerize at amazing acrobatic stunts
Move to the beat of the latest grooves
WANA JOIN THE STREETDANCE COMPETITION?
10K worth of cash & prizes for the first placer!
Contact me for details!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
a story of a little girl
There were two children who met at the church- a little boy and a little girl. They started playing around and was running after each other.
At one instance, probably the last game they had, the little girl was the one running after the boy. She's probably it. And then, the little boy went back to his parents and was busy with another activity again, forgetting about the game and the little girl.
The girl kept waiting. When she realized that her playmate wouldn't join her again, she just smiled sheepishly, somewhat embarrassed that she had been waiting for nothing. Then she went back to her parents, probably wishing nobody saw what happened.
My relationship with you darling, has been like that. Thing is, seems like i've always been it. Looks like it's not a fair game. But it was my fault, wasn't it? You expressed your resignment. I should have accepted it. I should have stopped...waiting.
At one instance, probably the last game they had, the little girl was the one running after the boy. She's probably it. And then, the little boy went back to his parents and was busy with another activity again, forgetting about the game and the little girl.
The girl kept waiting. When she realized that her playmate wouldn't join her again, she just smiled sheepishly, somewhat embarrassed that she had been waiting for nothing. Then she went back to her parents, probably wishing nobody saw what happened.
My relationship with you darling, has been like that. Thing is, seems like i've always been it. Looks like it's not a fair game. But it was my fault, wasn't it? You expressed your resignment. I should have accepted it. I should have stopped...waiting.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Progress
was it a year ago? a few days before your brthday that i said goodbye?
it's nearly a year past..and i'm still stuck with the goodbyes.
it's been a year yes. and i haven't kept my word. i tried darling. i did.
yesterday i made a bet with my sister, just so that now i have to keep my promise. i should have nothing to do with you starting that day- yesterday, july 22, 2007, a sunday.
i made an improvement darling! you should be proud of me. i managed to delete your number and your folder of messages in my mobile phone. so now you're off in my phone. Next will be the YM messages, which will really take some time since darling, your folder in my message archive contains a year-worth of messages. i have to take care of it some other time. but i deleted you off my YM list already.
just so you would understand (not that you care anyway), I'm not doing this to spite you. I'm doing this for me and for both of us. You don't like me bothering you all the time. So i have to do something. I deleted you off my phone and my YM list so that I won't see your name on them, and so I will not be tempted to bother you.
and you're not online (or just invisble) these days anyway. hiding from me? no need darling. cause i'll resist every urge to contact you - with the bet and my resolution, I intend to keep my word.
promises are said to be meant to be broken. i did it a lot of times. now God, please help me keep my promise. I'm hurting now but it's better than to prolong the agony, the illusion.
it's nearly a year past..and i'm still stuck with the goodbyes.
it's been a year yes. and i haven't kept my word. i tried darling. i did.
yesterday i made a bet with my sister, just so that now i have to keep my promise. i should have nothing to do with you starting that day- yesterday, july 22, 2007, a sunday.
i made an improvement darling! you should be proud of me. i managed to delete your number and your folder of messages in my mobile phone. so now you're off in my phone. Next will be the YM messages, which will really take some time since darling, your folder in my message archive contains a year-worth of messages. i have to take care of it some other time. but i deleted you off my YM list already.
just so you would understand (not that you care anyway), I'm not doing this to spite you. I'm doing this for me and for both of us. You don't like me bothering you all the time. So i have to do something. I deleted you off my phone and my YM list so that I won't see your name on them, and so I will not be tempted to bother you.
and you're not online (or just invisble) these days anyway. hiding from me? no need darling. cause i'll resist every urge to contact you - with the bet and my resolution, I intend to keep my word.
promises are said to be meant to be broken. i did it a lot of times. now God, please help me keep my promise. I'm hurting now but it's better than to prolong the agony, the illusion.
Forwarded Messages:
12/30/2006 2:34:46pm: Arcadio
Math tells us the three saddest love stories:
The tangents who met once but parted forever.
The parallel lines who never really met, and never will.
And the asymptotes who are getting closer and closer but were not meant together.
1/17/2007 9:51:41pm: Jane
Kung meron ang math, meron din ang physics.
Physics demonstrates the three biggest ironies of love:
1. There are those with forces of attraction so great, but will never be together because a stronger force separates them.
2. There are those in uniform circular motion: infinite attraction, no interaction.
3. And there are those so similar, like two magnets with similar poles, the closer they get, the stronger the repelling force.
1/9/2007 8:33:39 pm: Ash
Para sa mga bitter:
“Maybe cupid should shoot himself with his own damn arrow. Just so he can see and feel how much love hurts…advance happy valentines!”
1/1/2007 11:55:36pm: Jane
“Love someone whom you don’t have to be fancy or talk in a special way, you don’t have to mind your manners or wear your best clothes and shoes, you don’t have to pretend you’re happy when you’re feeling sad..Love someone you can cry on, you can laugh out loud with, you can speak your mind or say nothing at all, you don’t have to try hard to impress him/her..Go with someone whom you can just be you and appreciates you for that..”
[meaning I don’t have to, but want to is okay?]
11/28/2006 10:38:04pm: Jane
People say they love flowers,
Yet they pluck them.
They say they love trees,
But still cut them.
Now I know why some are afraid
When told that they are loved…
4/2/2007 11:32:12pm: Jane
In a world where almost everyone you meet is a jerk, you know you don’t need to be serious. Hang out, pretend, and play with them. Have fun and stop anytime. No attachments, no commitments, no pain. Convenient, isn’t it? But at the end of the show, you know you are still yearning for something genuine. You realize that what you are really looking forward to is having someone who can look at you straight in the eyes, and tell you he/she loves you; someone worth every risk of pain, someone who’ll stay, someone who will simply make a difference.
12/28/2006 9:57:07am: Ash
The human brain is the most outstanding thing. It functions 24 hours 365 days. It functions right from the time you were born…until you fall in love.
12/17/2006 10:02:56pm: Arcadio
We don’t see things as they are. We see them as we are.- Anais Nin
11/18/2006 10:56:06pm: Jane
“2 letters”
Dear Diary,
I saw him passing my way. I didn’t know what to do. I used to smile and greet him but I feel so awkward so I looked the other way. Besides, he’s the star of the basketball team; he’ll never notice a geek like me.
Dear Diary,
I passed by the corridor and saw the pretty smart girl I usually sit with during chemistry. I tried to smile at her but she looked the other way. Besides, I’m just a guy who could shoot some hoops, while she’s the pretty honor student. She’ll never like a guy like me.
7/22/2007 10:29:04pm: Jane
“The worst pain in life is when someone you know turns into someone you knew.”
1/20/2007 10:51:06 am: Minnette
Pinaka-corny pero pinaka-effective na pick-up line:
“Miss, lam mo ba..Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop..At hindi tayo halaman..BAGAY tayo! BAGAY!”
1/7/2007 8:49:31pm: Raisa
Quotes from the world’s greatest warriors:
I came. I saw. I conquered.- Julius Caesar
I shall return.- Douglas McArthur
I will fight iniwan, iniwer, initaym. – Pacman
7/23/2007 1:27:30pm: Rose Ann
It’s nice to recall our mistakes in the past
Joke about real life punch lines
And laugh about our dumb old selves
Cause remembering how stupid we were
Makes us realize
How less stupid we are now.
Math tells us the three saddest love stories:
The tangents who met once but parted forever.
The parallel lines who never really met, and never will.
And the asymptotes who are getting closer and closer but were not meant together.
1/17/2007 9:51:41pm: Jane
Kung meron ang math, meron din ang physics.
Physics demonstrates the three biggest ironies of love:
1. There are those with forces of attraction so great, but will never be together because a stronger force separates them.
2. There are those in uniform circular motion: infinite attraction, no interaction.
3. And there are those so similar, like two magnets with similar poles, the closer they get, the stronger the repelling force.
1/9/2007 8:33:39 pm: Ash
Para sa mga bitter:
“Maybe cupid should shoot himself with his own damn arrow. Just so he can see and feel how much love hurts…advance happy valentines!”
1/1/2007 11:55:36pm: Jane
“Love someone whom you don’t have to be fancy or talk in a special way, you don’t have to mind your manners or wear your best clothes and shoes, you don’t have to pretend you’re happy when you’re feeling sad..Love someone you can cry on, you can laugh out loud with, you can speak your mind or say nothing at all, you don’t have to try hard to impress him/her..Go with someone whom you can just be you and appreciates you for that..”
[meaning I don’t have to, but want to is okay?]
11/28/2006 10:38:04pm: Jane
People say they love flowers,
Yet they pluck them.
They say they love trees,
But still cut them.
Now I know why some are afraid
When told that they are loved…
4/2/2007 11:32:12pm: Jane
In a world where almost everyone you meet is a jerk, you know you don’t need to be serious. Hang out, pretend, and play with them. Have fun and stop anytime. No attachments, no commitments, no pain. Convenient, isn’t it? But at the end of the show, you know you are still yearning for something genuine. You realize that what you are really looking forward to is having someone who can look at you straight in the eyes, and tell you he/she loves you; someone worth every risk of pain, someone who’ll stay, someone who will simply make a difference.
12/28/2006 9:57:07am: Ash
The human brain is the most outstanding thing. It functions 24 hours 365 days. It functions right from the time you were born…until you fall in love.
12/17/2006 10:02:56pm: Arcadio
We don’t see things as they are. We see them as we are.- Anais Nin
11/18/2006 10:56:06pm: Jane
“2 letters”
Dear Diary,
I saw him passing my way. I didn’t know what to do. I used to smile and greet him but I feel so awkward so I looked the other way. Besides, he’s the star of the basketball team; he’ll never notice a geek like me.
Dear Diary,
I passed by the corridor and saw the pretty smart girl I usually sit with during chemistry. I tried to smile at her but she looked the other way. Besides, I’m just a guy who could shoot some hoops, while she’s the pretty honor student. She’ll never like a guy like me.
7/22/2007 10:29:04pm: Jane
“The worst pain in life is when someone you know turns into someone you knew.”
1/20/2007 10:51:06 am: Minnette
Pinaka-corny pero pinaka-effective na pick-up line:
“Miss, lam mo ba..Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop..At hindi tayo halaman..BAGAY tayo! BAGAY!”
1/7/2007 8:49:31pm: Raisa
Quotes from the world’s greatest warriors:
I came. I saw. I conquered.- Julius Caesar
I shall return.- Douglas McArthur
I will fight iniwan, iniwer, initaym. – Pacman
7/23/2007 1:27:30pm: Rose Ann
It’s nice to recall our mistakes in the past
Joke about real life punch lines
And laugh about our dumb old selves
Cause remembering how stupid we were
Makes us realize
How less stupid we are now.
Friday, July 20, 2007
ba 143
and i still can't help myself...
haha. forget you darling?
i saw my old crush in school. he was a classmate way back in first year. he suddenly looked so attractive to me. haha. i mean, of course he was quite good-looking then, but now! my gosh, sex appeal!
he was looking at me. i think he recognized me. but then i was in a sort of a hurry, i looked so frazzled and i remembered that i forgot to put on some perfume (not that i smell bad), so i was so embarrassed that i just rushed past him and pretended to be busy. i couldn't even look and smile at him.
but next time, if ever we're gonna meet again, i'll take my chance - look, smile, and say hello. if he recognizes me, then we'll probably talk. if not, then who's gonna use a pick-up line darling? haha.
but i still miss you.
haha. forget you darling?
i saw my old crush in school. he was a classmate way back in first year. he suddenly looked so attractive to me. haha. i mean, of course he was quite good-looking then, but now! my gosh, sex appeal!
he was looking at me. i think he recognized me. but then i was in a sort of a hurry, i looked so frazzled and i remembered that i forgot to put on some perfume (not that i smell bad), so i was so embarrassed that i just rushed past him and pretended to be busy. i couldn't even look and smile at him.
but next time, if ever we're gonna meet again, i'll take my chance - look, smile, and say hello. if he recognizes me, then we'll probably talk. if not, then who's gonna use a pick-up line darling? haha.
but i still miss you.
Monday, July 16, 2007
reality
i did something stupid. and ugly. and embarassing. and i hate it.
but i did something else which is wonderful and fulfilling.
i did everything darling. i did everything i can even if there's nothing to save in the first place.
i suppose i should be happy now. that i was given the opportunity to do everything. i took the risk, see? even if it didn't turned out what i hoped for...what happened was different.
i didn't expect something incredible to happen, though i hoped for it. what happened was nice enough for me to wish for a second time around.
i was always giving and expecting nothing in return. but i wished and hoped, and i prayed, that someday you will do something for me. but darling, throughout the years, you never even bothered to give me something. sometimes you were there when i asked you to. but that's always it - i ask for it, and sometimes you give in. it's like you're forced to do it. it's like you do it in return for whatever you received from me. that's what i feel. that's what i think you feel about it.
and you don't even know my birthday. i appreciate everything you did for me; but sometimes the yearnings of a romantic shows itself - the roses & chocolates, the sweet nothings, the spark, the magic, and the feeling that you love and are loved in return.
and it's obvious in your part that there is nothing to believe in. i should quit fooling myself that the things you do for me are special. cause i think they are ordinary things you do to your friends. i can't stop thinking how i managed to be in a delusion for such a long time when i'm hurting all the time.
it's over. it should be.
cause you are real darling; and i should stick to reality.
but i did something else which is wonderful and fulfilling.
i did everything darling. i did everything i can even if there's nothing to save in the first place.
i suppose i should be happy now. that i was given the opportunity to do everything. i took the risk, see? even if it didn't turned out what i hoped for...what happened was different.
i didn't expect something incredible to happen, though i hoped for it. what happened was nice enough for me to wish for a second time around.
i was always giving and expecting nothing in return. but i wished and hoped, and i prayed, that someday you will do something for me. but darling, throughout the years, you never even bothered to give me something. sometimes you were there when i asked you to. but that's always it - i ask for it, and sometimes you give in. it's like you're forced to do it. it's like you do it in return for whatever you received from me. that's what i feel. that's what i think you feel about it.
and you don't even know my birthday. i appreciate everything you did for me; but sometimes the yearnings of a romantic shows itself - the roses & chocolates, the sweet nothings, the spark, the magic, and the feeling that you love and are loved in return.
and it's obvious in your part that there is nothing to believe in. i should quit fooling myself that the things you do for me are special. cause i think they are ordinary things you do to your friends. i can't stop thinking how i managed to be in a delusion for such a long time when i'm hurting all the time.
it's over. it should be.
cause you are real darling; and i should stick to reality.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
sudden realization
now i know why i'm always tensed and nervous when we meet.
'cause darling, for such a long time, we communicated thru phone/PC. we got to know each other using these means of communication. in the absence of personal interaction, i somehow managed to conjure up illusions of you. the sole basis of course were the conversations we had, and the few times we met.
and then, i didn't know how to react - when someone i believed so far away is suddenly infront of me. how can i face my illusions? i imagined a person out of you. i made a dream person out of our conversations.
the premise for our conversations i believed at first, is that i can easily open up to you because we are never going to meet. see? as much as i want to meet you again and again, there is a lot of difference in talking with a person thru phone/PC compared to being with you personally.
i cannot imagine that someone i dreamed for so long, someone i illusioned, someone i made up out of my own wishful thinking, will face me. i can't stand the fact that someone i opened up to -my feelings, my secrets, my thoughts - will face me one day.
and the embarrassment! how am i supposed to confront you?
my dreams, my fears, my illusions - they have to fade away. somehow i managed to hold on to them for such a long time and disconnecting myself to them is like giving up a big part of me.
but it's time for me to move on. move on to reality. you cannot remain in my thoughts as is.
you are real.
'cause darling, for such a long time, we communicated thru phone/PC. we got to know each other using these means of communication. in the absence of personal interaction, i somehow managed to conjure up illusions of you. the sole basis of course were the conversations we had, and the few times we met.
and then, i didn't know how to react - when someone i believed so far away is suddenly infront of me. how can i face my illusions? i imagined a person out of you. i made a dream person out of our conversations.
the premise for our conversations i believed at first, is that i can easily open up to you because we are never going to meet. see? as much as i want to meet you again and again, there is a lot of difference in talking with a person thru phone/PC compared to being with you personally.
i cannot imagine that someone i dreamed for so long, someone i illusioned, someone i made up out of my own wishful thinking, will face me. i can't stand the fact that someone i opened up to -my feelings, my secrets, my thoughts - will face me one day.
and the embarrassment! how am i supposed to confront you?
my dreams, my fears, my illusions - they have to fade away. somehow i managed to hold on to them for such a long time and disconnecting myself to them is like giving up a big part of me.
but it's time for me to move on. move on to reality. you cannot remain in my thoughts as is.
you are real.
Monday, July 02, 2007
i waited & waited, and then u left
maybe you're wondering why i wanted to go out again...
haha darling, the reason is not exactly because i want to see you again. main reason is that i want to redeem myself.
you're not giving me any opportunity to make up for that night. i wanted to show you the best side of me. it's so embarrassing for me that everytime we meet or see each other, i'm always in the worst form possible - my appearance, mood, what i'm doing at that particular moment, etc.
i don't know if men can understand this sort of feeling - the frustration to be able to impress yourself on the person you want so much, but end up rather disgusted with yourself.
this is a very embarrassing, and stupid situation.
i don't think you're wondering why i kept asking you if you were free last weekend. you're smart enough to guess that i wanted to go out again. i waited, and waited, and then you left. i wanted to makeup for that night.
but then again, sensing that you don't want to, i have to back down.
aggressiveness will lead to nowhere. you know me well i think. you can take hints.
but i'm confused by your actions. i don't know what to expect or what to do.
nothing i suppose.
haha darling, the reason is not exactly because i want to see you again. main reason is that i want to redeem myself.
you're not giving me any opportunity to make up for that night. i wanted to show you the best side of me. it's so embarrassing for me that everytime we meet or see each other, i'm always in the worst form possible - my appearance, mood, what i'm doing at that particular moment, etc.
i don't know if men can understand this sort of feeling - the frustration to be able to impress yourself on the person you want so much, but end up rather disgusted with yourself.
this is a very embarrassing, and stupid situation.
i don't think you're wondering why i kept asking you if you were free last weekend. you're smart enough to guess that i wanted to go out again. i waited, and waited, and then you left. i wanted to makeup for that night.
but then again, sensing that you don't want to, i have to back down.
aggressiveness will lead to nowhere. you know me well i think. you can take hints.
but i'm confused by your actions. i don't know what to expect or what to do.
nothing i suppose.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
please.
"Do not tell him you want a commitment, he will run, repeat, he will run faster than you can blink. "
-from somewhere in yahoo
-from somewhere in yahoo
Friday, June 22, 2007
pathetically speaking i'm ok
i'm sorry...(why am i forever saying sorry?)
if ever that's the last time we're gonna meet, i really do regret it. i always dreamt that we'll have fun and laugh, and wish that the night will never end.
but how come when i face you i can't be myself? why do i feel so tensed and nervous?..to tell the truth, it's much easier (and we have better conversations at that) actually to talk to you thru chat or text rather than personally. even the sound of your voice makes me so nervous, and it makes me act so differently than i want to.
maybe because we should try spending more time together rather than just through whatever means of communication that is/are convenient to us.
that is, if you want to.
it takes effort and time to make it. but obviously you don't seem to exert effort and give time, i suppose there really is nothing in there. plus, you got all the entertainment you need from the people surrounding you.
you don't need me. you don't want me. and i hate it.
pathetic.
if ever that's the last time we're gonna meet, i really do regret it. i always dreamt that we'll have fun and laugh, and wish that the night will never end.
but how come when i face you i can't be myself? why do i feel so tensed and nervous?..to tell the truth, it's much easier (and we have better conversations at that) actually to talk to you thru chat or text rather than personally. even the sound of your voice makes me so nervous, and it makes me act so differently than i want to.
maybe because we should try spending more time together rather than just through whatever means of communication that is/are convenient to us.
that is, if you want to.
it takes effort and time to make it. but obviously you don't seem to exert effort and give time, i suppose there really is nothing in there. plus, you got all the entertainment you need from the people surrounding you.
you don't need me. you don't want me. and i hate it.
pathetic.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
100th post
yeah.. and when I see my first few posts, I learned that I haven't learned anything..I am not moving on. still stuck in the same old place - hurt & disgusted with myself.
more than a year already..stuck. agh.
little by little i'll move away, and by doing so will make me get over things i should have left years ago.
more than a year already..stuck. agh.
little by little i'll move away, and by doing so will make me get over things i should have left years ago.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
virac
and then i went home for the weekend to attend a wedding.
and yes, i played a lot. literally..played with my sisters.
and i wanna be home all the time. =)
and yes, i played a lot. literally..played with my sisters.
and i wanna be home all the time. =)
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
greenbelt
National Sports GRill, GreenbeltPLDT Summer Camp's 1st Kamustahan
April 20, 2007 (Friday)
-nice!-
Sunday, April 29, 2007
love as..
Love as insecurity, is not a very bad thing I suppose. Insecurity arises when one loves and there is a need to be loved in return. There is the expectation for the love to be reciprocated. Insecurity is shown as we are not comfortable with ourselves alone. We need others to appreciate us and to help us develop ourselves. Perhaps it can be expressed most as follows: “we love best those who need us most” (Anne of Avonlea by L.M. Montgomery). There is a sense of martyrdom or of a need to be hero – to be praised and appreciated by other people. Hence, the image of damsel in distress and knight in shining armor comes to mind. However, love as I’m speaking of, is not limited to romantic love alone, but to love of all kinds; a personal definition of love notwithstanding.
I am not saying this is a bad thing. It is actually human nature. And if the Creator/Divine Providence made us this way, maybe there is a good reason for that.
Living alone and not needing anybody is as lonely as could be. There is a purpose for us to be created as insecure and as needy for love as possible. It is to create brotherhood and enjoy life and the blessings of the Divine Providence all the more.
Perhaps love is at its best when there is mutual benefit and happiness.
Love in moderation is good. Excessive love might result to infatuation or obsession. I think it is safe to relate love to infatuation or obsession as we are not even sure exactly what love means.
-December 18, 2006 (Monday)
I am not saying this is a bad thing. It is actually human nature. And if the Creator/Divine Providence made us this way, maybe there is a good reason for that.
Living alone and not needing anybody is as lonely as could be. There is a purpose for us to be created as insecure and as needy for love as possible. It is to create brotherhood and enjoy life and the blessings of the Divine Providence all the more.
Perhaps love is at its best when there is mutual benefit and happiness.
Love in moderation is good. Excessive love might result to infatuation or obsession. I think it is safe to relate love to infatuation or obsession as we are not even sure exactly what love means.
-December 18, 2006 (Monday)
Saturday, April 21, 2007
moody..
i'm getting a little cranky already. maybe because i haven't had a proper vacation yet since the christmas break. from all the acad work, org, intern, and other extra-curricular activities, i am already tired from rushing everything.
with just the weekend to relax--oh no! not relax! with all the org activities and laundry i have to do, and some catching up with friends and colleagues, i can't can't relax! work on weekdays and still i want to do something else..enroll in a dance class or something..something to develop a skill or discover a talent...
my sister's kidding me that i'm always trying to be a superwoman when i'm not and cannot be. Why do i always feel the need to do something or do a lot at the same time? why do i feel the need to try everything at the same time? Is time really running out? that i have to make the most of it? to no longer sleep if it's just not necessary..
tired darling. worn out. i just want to go out, relax, and have fun. don't get me wrong, i have fun working. it's just that, i think my physical aspect can no longer keep up with my determination.
i want out. i want a breather.
with just the weekend to relax--oh no! not relax! with all the org activities and laundry i have to do, and some catching up with friends and colleagues, i can't can't relax! work on weekdays and still i want to do something else..enroll in a dance class or something..something to develop a skill or discover a talent...
my sister's kidding me that i'm always trying to be a superwoman when i'm not and cannot be. Why do i always feel the need to do something or do a lot at the same time? why do i feel the need to try everything at the same time? Is time really running out? that i have to make the most of it? to no longer sleep if it's just not necessary..
tired darling. worn out. i just want to go out, relax, and have fun. don't get me wrong, i have fun working. it's just that, i think my physical aspect can no longer keep up with my determination.
i want out. i want a breather.
april madness
aside from having the first few days of april busy for some final exams & projects plus company interviews, i also had a lot if extra-curricular activities in mind.
rushing through exams and company interviews, i finally maanged to finish all the requirements and transfer all my stuff from my dorm to our house in san juan. then i have to do some FP requirements (i'm the VC for logistics for Financial Project this coming semester), American Chamber Seminar & Business Plan Competition, and then my internship with PLDT all in the same week (April 9-15, 2007). Then there's the screening for Stratmark/PANA team. There's also the plan sem for the org. The whole week, I went home just to take a bath and change clothes. I hadn't had the time to eat regularly and I was rushing from san juan to makati, to boni, to UP, and all around. I was pretty tired that week. I know I wasn't going to make it all. Some would be sacrificed for others. And i have to prioritized which matters most to me.
the results? my team won the amcham business plan competition & we got a pink glass trophy for that, and i didn't make it on the stratmark/pana screening. ironic isn' it? they're both marketing competitions..oh well. i guess i settled for the short-term goal.
I took a day off from work just to be able to make my presentation for the screening. but it was bad. i wasnt feeling good. and from the very start, i knew it would be terrible. but i want to try. i had to even though i knew it was going to be bad. Because i was still hoping..that even if my instincts are telling me it's not for me, I was still hoping that some miracle would happen and save me from destiny. I wanted to prove it wrong. That i'll be able to make it and that I make my own destiny. But no, there really are some things I can't do or change.
oh well, gotta accept fate.
after i took the PLDT contract, there are different companies calling me up everyday offerring better compansation & better work. but i could no longer back out. it's done. if i did, it would be much worse for me.
oh yeah, there's also the Philip Morris Choose your own adventure..i had the interview that friday. i know i'm not going to make it. it was bad. though i'm still hoping.
went to antipolo on sunday for the org's plan sem. tired. wasn't able to get anything from it. and i still got work the next day.
gotta rest rest rest.
rushing through exams and company interviews, i finally maanged to finish all the requirements and transfer all my stuff from my dorm to our house in san juan. then i have to do some FP requirements (i'm the VC for logistics for Financial Project this coming semester), American Chamber Seminar & Business Plan Competition, and then my internship with PLDT all in the same week (April 9-15, 2007). Then there's the screening for Stratmark/PANA team. There's also the plan sem for the org. The whole week, I went home just to take a bath and change clothes. I hadn't had the time to eat regularly and I was rushing from san juan to makati, to boni, to UP, and all around. I was pretty tired that week. I know I wasn't going to make it all. Some would be sacrificed for others. And i have to prioritized which matters most to me.
the results? my team won the amcham business plan competition & we got a pink glass trophy for that, and i didn't make it on the stratmark/pana screening. ironic isn' it? they're both marketing competitions..oh well. i guess i settled for the short-term goal.
I took a day off from work just to be able to make my presentation for the screening. but it was bad. i wasnt feeling good. and from the very start, i knew it would be terrible. but i want to try. i had to even though i knew it was going to be bad. Because i was still hoping..that even if my instincts are telling me it's not for me, I was still hoping that some miracle would happen and save me from destiny. I wanted to prove it wrong. That i'll be able to make it and that I make my own destiny. But no, there really are some things I can't do or change.
oh well, gotta accept fate.
after i took the PLDT contract, there are different companies calling me up everyday offerring better compansation & better work. but i could no longer back out. it's done. if i did, it would be much worse for me.
oh yeah, there's also the Philip Morris Choose your own adventure..i had the interview that friday. i know i'm not going to make it. it was bad. though i'm still hoping.
went to antipolo on sunday for the org's plan sem. tired. wasn't able to get anything from it. and i still got work the next day.
gotta rest rest rest.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
oh baby i love your way
somehow i think it will be over soon.
a new found love will be gone soon.
love, nik, i was surprised
you consider it love when all you had was a friend
no matter what, I have to keep it to myself.
an agony, my gosh.
a new found love will be gone soon.
love, nik, i was surprised
you consider it love when all you had was a friend
no matter what, I have to keep it to myself.
an agony, my gosh.
Last sem pic!
BA 161 (1st sem 06-07)
We look so young! haha
L-R: Carlo, Ash, Wow, Lorie, Cy, Mayeen
Seated: Nikki, Rhoma, Karolyn
system launch
BA 186: System LaunchTeam Powercrew created C-IT (Cinema Information Technology) for Flick, Inc.
Me & Ash
-We don't look so stressed, do we?- =)
Saturday, March 17, 2007
formal dinner
Formal dinner
March 16, 2007, friday
8 pm.
Garden, Ilang ilang Residence Hall, UP Diliman
-with my roommate Reigna (left)-
=)
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
USC campaign assembly
7.30-10pm, dorm lobby - pretty fun!
now my annoyance is gone! had fun fun fun watching the candidates talk, act, sing, and dance! the Q&A portion is the most important part. though they weren't concerned mainly of serious topics regarding the university and their GPOAs, it is still interesting to note how they would act in certain situations that caught them off-guard.
the Q&A portion gave no preparation time, it was impromptu. but it was nice. but then, there were some confusing people...confusing candidates evidenced by contradictory statements..(trapo in the making?) i hope not.
the parties were asked regarding their stand for TOFI (tuition and other fee increase) if the majority of the student are pro-TOFI.
a STANDUP candidate said that they will still push for ANTI-TOFI because they believe that it is the correct thing to do even if the majority of the students are for it. then sometime later, the chairperson (Shan) candidate was asked that if ever she's the only one from her party to win and the rest are from other parties, will she push through with her stand & GPOAs? she said that she will do whatever it is for the students even if against her party's will/principles.
SEE? there is INCONSISTENCY! my golly. wer does her loyalty lie? to the students or to her party? maybe that is the question to all the candidates of her party. are they representative of the students or are they an independent body of their own separate from the rest of the students? your basic principles and ethic codes are not certain.
am i the only one confused or did i miss something? no i don't think so.
there is something fishy in there...and gosh darlings, you got a very big hole to cover.
oh yeah, go AISA KING for USC COUNCILOR!
now my annoyance is gone! had fun fun fun watching the candidates talk, act, sing, and dance! the Q&A portion is the most important part. though they weren't concerned mainly of serious topics regarding the university and their GPOAs, it is still interesting to note how they would act in certain situations that caught them off-guard.
the Q&A portion gave no preparation time, it was impromptu. but it was nice. but then, there were some confusing people...confusing candidates evidenced by contradictory statements..(trapo in the making?) i hope not.
the parties were asked regarding their stand for TOFI (tuition and other fee increase) if the majority of the student are pro-TOFI.
a STANDUP candidate said that they will still push for ANTI-TOFI because they believe that it is the correct thing to do even if the majority of the students are for it. then sometime later, the chairperson (Shan) candidate was asked that if ever she's the only one from her party to win and the rest are from other parties, will she push through with her stand & GPOAs? she said that she will do whatever it is for the students even if against her party's will/principles.
SEE? there is INCONSISTENCY! my golly. wer does her loyalty lie? to the students or to her party? maybe that is the question to all the candidates of her party. are they representative of the students or are they an independent body of their own separate from the rest of the students? your basic principles and ethic codes are not certain.
am i the only one confused or did i miss something? no i don't think so.
there is something fishy in there...and gosh darlings, you got a very big hole to cover.
oh yeah, go AISA KING for USC COUNCILOR!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
petty annoyances
i was actually a bit irritated in class today..i don't know if it showed. i did everything i can for that project..maybe i really don't deserve that award....i really don't want that award. i just want them to appreciate what i've done and sacrificed for that darn project. there! at least i got a bad word out.
1. I contacted the foundation and set the appointment. i made the arrnagements, etc.
2. I emailed, texted everybody in the group & the foundation for all the activities, meetings, etc.
3. I made sure everybody knows what he/she will be doing.
4. I had to list all the things necessary for the event, and assigned them.
5. I got the van and picked up everybody, bought the utensils, drinks, materials, etc.
oh yeah, if maybe i didn't fuss too much it's because i saw no need for that. if that award if for the amount of fussing, then yes, i am no winner. but i did them without fussing.
i listed all what I did. maybe they did more, though i can't think of any anyway. Plus the stupid reports and homeworks? I didn't fuss for them because they weren't that important and can be carried on with ease.
ah with all the hearthaches darling.
i am so overwhelmed with irritation for childishness. irritation or annoyance, and not hate. u hate if you loved first. i didn't.
1. I contacted the foundation and set the appointment. i made the arrnagements, etc.
2. I emailed, texted everybody in the group & the foundation for all the activities, meetings, etc.
3. I made sure everybody knows what he/she will be doing.
4. I had to list all the things necessary for the event, and assigned them.
5. I got the van and picked up everybody, bought the utensils, drinks, materials, etc.
oh yeah, if maybe i didn't fuss too much it's because i saw no need for that. if that award if for the amount of fussing, then yes, i am no winner. but i did them without fussing.
i listed all what I did. maybe they did more, though i can't think of any anyway. Plus the stupid reports and homeworks? I didn't fuss for them because they weren't that important and can be carried on with ease.
ah with all the hearthaches darling.
i am so overwhelmed with irritation for childishness. irritation or annoyance, and not hate. u hate if you loved first. i didn't.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
new
i'm feeling like a teenager all over again...
there's the drive to explore new things, and the lack of commitment in most matters.. There's the determination of searching out what other things the world can offer me..It's not irresponsibility and childishness..It is exploration and a way of shaping who i am..It is a way fo developing a person..I've never had a passion for anything, even when i was a kid. But now i can feel it..something in me that craves for something new and exciting. Something that i haven't experienced before. and the changes happening now aren't that surprising for some people. But for me, they are new and i intend to enjoy every moment of it.
I'm trying to learn how to relax and quit being anxious.
Live for today, live for the present, live for the people nik...carpe diem!
As a poem says, In the end all it is to be asked of a dead person is whether he had passion.
i think passion should be coupled with optimism...and i have to learn them both as soon as possible.
there's the drive to explore new things, and the lack of commitment in most matters.. There's the determination of searching out what other things the world can offer me..It's not irresponsibility and childishness..It is exploration and a way of shaping who i am..It is a way fo developing a person..I've never had a passion for anything, even when i was a kid. But now i can feel it..something in me that craves for something new and exciting. Something that i haven't experienced before. and the changes happening now aren't that surprising for some people. But for me, they are new and i intend to enjoy every moment of it.
I'm trying to learn how to relax and quit being anxious.
Live for today, live for the present, live for the people nik...carpe diem!
As a poem says, In the end all it is to be asked of a dead person is whether he had passion.
i think passion should be coupled with optimism...and i have to learn them both as soon as possible.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
varied.
accounting exam tomorrow afternoon..oh yes, nice nice nice.
how i wish i'l pass..that we'll all pass. such an interesting discussion with ma'am acuna this afternoon..
no i dont have anything specific to discuss in this entry...actually, im thinking about the people living in the GK site i went to last year.. so Stepford..creepy, freaky, darling..they're staring into nothing..they greet you then they're dead. hopeless people..they're dying subconciously...they're like bodies without souls..empty shells. my god. it is horrible. i think it is worse than death..wish they'll live..live & breathe again.
i don't know how visitors there can stand it. they're like zombies waiting to die again, if it's possible anyway.
but there, dead breathing people. i hope they snap out of it..live live live!
how i wish i'l pass..that we'll all pass. such an interesting discussion with ma'am acuna this afternoon..
no i dont have anything specific to discuss in this entry...actually, im thinking about the people living in the GK site i went to last year.. so Stepford..creepy, freaky, darling..they're staring into nothing..they greet you then they're dead. hopeless people..they're dying subconciously...they're like bodies without souls..empty shells. my god. it is horrible. i think it is worse than death..wish they'll live..live & breathe again.
i don't know how visitors there can stand it. they're like zombies waiting to die again, if it's possible anyway.
but there, dead breathing people. i hope they snap out of it..live live live!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
valentines.
feb13 8 pm- mama was asking me if i'll be going out on valentine's day. my gosh, i dont even have a date!
hahay. but my blockmates keep me busy! hahaha! all the block gimmicks my gosh. lunch, dinner, party...oh well, keeps me smiling all day.
love love love it!
feb 14 - studyinga accounting..studying at main lib for the first time! though 3 hours only. hehe.
gosh darling, why can't you see me now? this is the day of flowers & chocolates..they're everywhere..but my darling, where are you?
hahay. but my blockmates keep me busy! hahaha! all the block gimmicks my gosh. lunch, dinner, party...oh well, keeps me smiling all day.
love love love it!
feb 14 - studyinga accounting..studying at main lib for the first time! though 3 hours only. hehe.
gosh darling, why can't you see me now? this is the day of flowers & chocolates..they're everywhere..but my darling, where are you?
Thursday, February 01, 2007
hope.
i'm hoping, hoping, hoping darling..that's everything's going to be all right.
and why do i feel so sick and nervous all of a sudden? i don't know...maybe the stress, tension, and cold weather all combined together. or maybe it's just i'm thinking of you all over again.
with all the schoolwork, i can hardly breathe and live my happy life. it's becoming monotonously boring, and the results aren't that good. i want my old efficient life. i want my happy old self.
it's getting so busy nowadays. i want to a take a breather, a break from this mess. yes, a mess darling, and i have to fix it up sooner or later.
love is so evasive. happiness is where you want it. i am confused darling. i want a break.
and why do i feel so sick and nervous all of a sudden? i don't know...maybe the stress, tension, and cold weather all combined together. or maybe it's just i'm thinking of you all over again.
with all the schoolwork, i can hardly breathe and live my happy life. it's becoming monotonously boring, and the results aren't that good. i want my old efficient life. i want my happy old self.
it's getting so busy nowadays. i want to a take a breather, a break from this mess. yes, a mess darling, and i have to fix it up sooner or later.
love is so evasive. happiness is where you want it. i am confused darling. i want a break.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
ultimatum
I’m setting a target. By the end of March, I should be done with it already. I should know the results by then, & I should be able to move on.
This is a very stagnant phase. On this aspect of my life, I have been like this for a few years already. It is bad, very bad indeed. I thought time will make me get over it.
Now I’m setting an ultimatum for myself. I will try to do all I can. I blew up all the few chances I had before. I just need one more opportunity. But if all else fails, then so be it.
It’s either level up or the end. The End, will mean I have to move on – in another direction.
-I will be wearing a white dress with ruffles and a pink ribbon. I hope our attires will complement each other. I hope we will enjoy that night. I hope to see you soon.-
wishing.hoping.but in the end, i want to move on.
This is a very stagnant phase. On this aspect of my life, I have been like this for a few years already. It is bad, very bad indeed. I thought time will make me get over it.
Now I’m setting an ultimatum for myself. I will try to do all I can. I blew up all the few chances I had before. I just need one more opportunity. But if all else fails, then so be it.
It’s either level up or the end. The End, will mean I have to move on – in another direction.
-I will be wearing a white dress with ruffles and a pink ribbon. I hope our attires will complement each other. I hope we will enjoy that night. I hope to see you soon.-
wishing.hoping.but in the end, i want to move on.
Monday, January 01, 2007
New Year's Resolution
Or should I say Resolutions?
1. Hmm..I'm thinkin of becoming more prim & proper. People mistake me for a high school kid, like a 14 yr old or somthing. Though it can be amusing and a compliment sometimes, it's more often an insult. haha. I take it as an insult. Don't I look like a lady? So i have to be more proper, eh? Let me work on it, though I don't intend to give up the fun of being a kid. =P
2. Be Less Stressed; Be More HAPPY!
3. SMILE darlin'!
Three is one of my favorite numbers. 3 Christmas Wishes, 3 New Year's Resolutions. Haha! =)
1. Hmm..I'm thinkin of becoming more prim & proper. People mistake me for a high school kid, like a 14 yr old or somthing. Though it can be amusing and a compliment sometimes, it's more often an insult. haha. I take it as an insult. Don't I look like a lady? So i have to be more proper, eh? Let me work on it, though I don't intend to give up the fun of being a kid. =P
2. Be Less Stressed; Be More HAPPY!
3. SMILE darlin'!
Three is one of my favorite numbers. 3 Christmas Wishes, 3 New Year's Resolutions. Haha! =)
Christmas Wishes
So I wrote Santa a letter, just to compete with my sisters. Haha.
1. DigiCam- Mama gave me our old Kodak digicam but it wouldn't work na. It's old and it's not functioning well even before.
Result: Auntie Chit gave me her old digicam. It's not that old. It looks ok. but i managed to do something on it and it wouldn't work. Something about buffer memery that i couldn't figure our from the manual. Shutter won't work. Nikon digicam. Haay.
2. A boyfriend- Hmm. I think I've been wishing for this for three years running already. And my sisters are always asking me how Santa's going to bring the guy. Haha. Anyway, I haven't received it yet.
Result: Santa left a book on how to find your one true love by Bo Sanchez. Wow, it's improving! Think i'm getting nicer each year. No results for the first two Christmases, and I got one this year! Though a bit far-off. I want the real thing. Hahahahahaha!
3. World Peace - As usual, you have to wish this thing. You're a bad bad person if you don't.
Result: None yet. Gloomy weather still, damaged infrustructures not yet repaired.
But family's great! Thank God for it!
Actually, I think Santa delivered my Christmas Present last last Christmas (2005) on Christmas Day (25th). I think I managed to reject it though I didn't intend to. Bad bad. Will you bring him back, Santa? =)
1. DigiCam- Mama gave me our old Kodak digicam but it wouldn't work na. It's old and it's not functioning well even before.
Result: Auntie Chit gave me her old digicam. It's not that old. It looks ok. but i managed to do something on it and it wouldn't work. Something about buffer memery that i couldn't figure our from the manual. Shutter won't work. Nikon digicam. Haay.
2. A boyfriend- Hmm. I think I've been wishing for this for three years running already. And my sisters are always asking me how Santa's going to bring the guy. Haha. Anyway, I haven't received it yet.
Result: Santa left a book on how to find your one true love by Bo Sanchez. Wow, it's improving! Think i'm getting nicer each year. No results for the first two Christmases, and I got one this year! Though a bit far-off. I want the real thing. Hahahahahaha!
3. World Peace - As usual, you have to wish this thing. You're a bad bad person if you don't.
Result: None yet. Gloomy weather still, damaged infrustructures not yet repaired.
But family's great! Thank God for it!
Actually, I think Santa delivered my Christmas Present last last Christmas (2005) on Christmas Day (25th). I think I managed to reject it though I didn't intend to. Bad bad. Will you bring him back, Santa? =)
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